The trip started off well enough with the big suitcase just able to slip inside the back of the Mini and the scrapes on my fingers to make that happen healed quickly. There was that moment when the 2 gallon water jug hit the bottom of the dashboard and split open but I had towels and the B&B I stayed at had ways to repair it enough for it to remain functional. There was the cobblestone pathway to my room and the flight of stairs that I had to carry the suitcase over but that gave me a chance use the strength of my body. Even though the suitcase was heavy I could stay in the illusion that being prepared was making things easier rather than more difficult. Then came the moment when I didn't have any of things that I thought I needed. A dear friend asked me if I was okay. I paused and answered honestly, "Yes, in this moment I am." Wow, what that opened up inside of me for the rest of the trip! To acknowledge that in this moment I had all that I needed and to be open to asking or changing the situation when that no longer seemed true for me. I began to see how blessed and taken care of I am when I allow myself to let go of my perceived control over my life.
I often make it a practice when I travel to purposefully leave space in my suitcase for things I might pick up along the way. This is what I brought home with me this time: there is no right or wrong way of doing things there is only the willingness to show up fully and give it your very best or to allow yourself to play it safe and remain small. Trying to "do it right" leads me to over prepare in ways I may never use and to resist taking that first step into something new. I returned home with a suitcase that could have been half empty if I had not over packed and a heart that was completely full and ready for the next adventure.